I am not a Christian

I am not Christian🧐
I am not a Christian because it makes my life easy; if you want easy stick to lazy Sunday’s and  nights at home with the family. Christianity is NOT easy. 
I am not a Christian because it works for me, it often doesn’t. I pray and nothing happens. I see innocent people suffer, have lost parents, have family with disabilities and suffer with constant tinnitus and hearing loss. Why does God not answer my prayer? 
I am not a Christian because I am weak. I can hold my own, if you know me you know that. I would be…